midlife admission Show more
I readily self identified as poor decision making, poor impulse control, risk taking binge drinker. At age 40-ish, whatever chemical profile that facilitated that type of behavior waned.
I now find myself in some harm reduction, semi-hyper vigilant mode that really only gives me anxiety, because I know ten yeas ago I would have bolted into most situations I avoid now.
This is dotted with various memories of former risk taking, poor decisions to keep me on my toes.